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Thursday, May 26, 2011

SaNAh HeLwaH My LuV.....

Alhamdulillah...
wif His pure love and blessing...
I'm here again to spill on my D...
ehehe....
lend me ur tyme to read on diz stowi......
check it out...!!!!

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a teacher walk rushingly into her class realizing dat she's quite late on dat morning...
meeting maa....not purposely wanna be late....

"gud monin teacher...!!!"
da students scream out loudly as soon as da teacher entered da class...
well, Standard 1...u know.....hehe....
then, they recite a doa......and of course, loudly..!!

"ok sit down everyone..now i want all of u to............"
da lesson starts......

for many years, diz is what da teacher used to do in her life.....
walk into classes......
teaching.....
screaming.....
babbling.....
motivating.....
marking papers....
walk into classes again......
teaching again and again.....
screaming over and over.....
babbling blablabla.....
motivating more and more.....
marking papers, books, papers, books, papers and papers and......... 
(too much repetitions here is to show da works is A LOT...!!)
A LOT......!!!!!!!!!!

hmmmmmm......
da teacher is not only bz managing her life as a teacher....
she's also a wife to a husband....
a mom to 4 lovely kids....
a talented housewife.....
a wonderful cooking master.....
and etc etc......

however...
within all of diz workssssssssssssssssss......
she never complained............


14th September 2009...
a date which completely changed many things in her life...
a date which was a blast to herself....
a date which grab many things she had....
da date dat....
........she had stroke........

no more classes....
no more stdudents....
no school....
no papers or books....

bubbye to kitchen and cooking...
tata to cleaning....
sayonara to all houseworking.....
all left is juz being lying....
cause on dat tyme she cant do anythin.....

time passes by....
she's not fully recover yet but she's now gettin much better....
now...
she can walk by her ownself...
slowly....
she can feed herself...
slowly....
managing her ownself....
slowly...
cloth folding...
slowly...
sweeping....
slowly....

....Alhamdulillah....


to her dearest hubby, 
she always thanking....
for all sacrifices which she know are all tiring...
and for her kids, 
she keep on smiling....
to make up their days and bright their feels...

da 'she' i mean is my own mummy...
da one and only.....



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26 May a.k.a today....

SANAH HELWAH YA UMMI....
Noor Azuha bt Abd Rahman



thank u mak for being strong for us.....
moge mak tros kuat and kuat......
moge panjang umo and mura rezki.....
mak cpat2 sehat yek....
i really miss ur cooking....!!!
(boring da mkan sendrik masak, heheh)

~~luv u~~





Thursday, May 5, 2011

Cerpen: Demand...perlukah...??


KOMSAS 
Tingkatan 5

Antologi Sendrik2 Reka

Cerpen: Demand...perlukah...??

Tema: Demanding

Persoalan: Ape sume nih..?? Cerpen apekahh??

Watak: sumenye protagonis xde antagonis

Perwatakan: wanita2 mude remaja, kiut2 belake, suke sharing2 ngn kgkwn coz sharing is caring, suke mkan choc cap Vochelle perisa nut, sgt minat Hlovate's stuff, dll...(x laghat nk list down)

Latar mase: zaman mude2 di alaf 21

Latar masyarakat: dak2 Form 5 yg ag 2 bulan suku nk amek SPM

Latar tempat: Dorm 187, Kelas 5 Ibn Sina, Surau

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al-kisah bermule di Dorm 187 a.k.a dorm tercantik yg da mnang 17 kali pertandingan dorm paling cun peringkat sekolah....watak2 utame yg tamo dikenali dgn nme sbenar sedang dok rilek2 besame-same di tgh2 dorm smentare tggu waktu prep nk stat kul 3 jap lagik....

"kowang2....kome nk guy yg cane weyh..??" 
kate Peah memulekan topik ptg tu...
Peah mmg dr td da aim nk lpas gewam tok beborak kat dorm
sbb td kat dewan makan smeowg dok khusyuk mkan jew xnk layan dye becakap...
da lapo bona laa tu...

"nk yg encem laa..."
 kumen si Jaja yg tgh mkan jajan cap Jojo buatan kilang JaJuJi kat Johor...
isshh x kenyang2 ag upenye dak nih...

"ak nk yg pkai spec...nmpak mecet and educated..." 
Sam plak jwb nada xde feeling....
laayankan jew si Peah tu...

"yew kew?? hmmm..." 
bru dengar sore si Qila yg dr td dok sengih jew....
"aiii kgkwn ak nih...." monolog Qila sesowang dlm ati
smbil tgn dok men2 key-chain rabbit Peah..
xde keje btol...

"weyh...yg encem play laaa..." 
sampuk Lia yg bru jew pas teguk air reverse osmosis yg dibeli kat koop tem rehat td..

"x sume gitu kott..."
bangkang Jaja.....nmpak x puas ati beno ngn sampukan Lia...

"ak nk yg gelap2...pastu tinggi..."
Peah akhirnye men'sharing'kan opinion nye ttg dream guy yg dye nak 
stlah dr td dok diam jew dgr yg len b'ckp2...

"huh??gelap...??"

serentak Jaja, Sam ngn Lia wat mate bulat ala2 mate panda...
(eh, mate panda bulat kew??)

"bia laa....da ak suke..."
cepat jew Peah jwb balek...statement bela diri....

"hahahahahah...lawak laaa kome nih..."
Qila gelak beriye2 tgok dowg berempat...
gaye da mcm ahli PBB bincang mslah keamanan dunia jew...
padahey.........
huhuu.....

"eleleyhh...suke beno wat gaye cool....ce cte mu nok hok gane..??" 
pnoh perasaan si Sam cebik mulot semate2 nk ckp dialog ni...
gaye cm ape jew minah ni...


........and da question left unsaid........

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ak nk yg baek.....
yg strong 'foundation' nye....
yg ley guide ak....
yg ley jage ak....
protect ak...
rupe??
tah laa..
ak x pnah ad descriptionssss on diz point....
tp klu dpt yg encem pew slahnye...hohoho
tp bg ak rupe x pnting...
what matters is manners dye....
encem tp prangai huduh nk watpe pon, ye orp??
klu x encem tp salu pi masjid jd imam...x pon bilal... 
x pon at least tlong bentang2 sejadah pon is much better for me...
tapi................
errmmmm...
cane nk dpt yg baek....??
sdangkan my very ownself pon x ckop baek ag....
nak yg baek......
nak yg baek.....
yg baek....

hmmm....
demand kah daku...??
salah kew for being choosy ceni...??

(monolog dalaman Qila yg x ter'spill' out kat rakan2 dorm di kala ptg ari itu)

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"perhatian kpd sume pljr puteri, anda ade mase lg 5 minit tok kosongkan kwsn asrama...
ulang suare...
perhatian kpd sume pljr puteri, anda ade mase lg 5 minit tok kosongkan kwsn asrama..."
Faz a.k.a Exco Disiplin da stat jerit2 kat bwh sbb hailer wosak...
cian Faz...


"da2 weyh....jum ciap...Faz da pggil tuu..." 
ajak Qila seraye menyarung tdung kat pale tanpe tggu 2,3 minit ag...
lmbat kang kne denda jalan itik pmpin tgn smbil snyum nmpak gigi...
ape spesis pye denda laa...

"alaaaaaaaa......!!!!!!!"
serentak Peah, Sam, Jaja ngn Lia jerit x puas ati lbey 6 harakat sbb Qila x jwb2 gak soklan depa td...
da mcm koir pon ade ckp serentak gtu....

"jln itik or besiap...?? u guys choose...." 
Qila wat muke cumel smbil kelip2 mate ala2 ad pakai bulu mate palsu...

dgr jew jln itik laz2 empat2 awekss tuu pon bgun laa jgak beciap...
hoho...taw kome takutt...
Qila geleng pale ngn senyum meleret kat muke....kgkwn ak....huhu...

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di kelas 5 Ibn Sina Science stream (5 IS).....
latar mase 3.17 ptg....

masing2 sebok ngn hal memaseng...
ad yg studi....stok2 rajin laa nih...baguih2...
student2 gni laa yg akan merealisasikan Falsafah Pendidikan Kebangsaan (FPK)..
ad gak yg stido....well, prep ptg kan...paham2 jelaa....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......
selaen itu, ad gop yg wat study group.....
tapiiii...............

"jiran ak en, bini dye cantek bangeettt....tp laki dye bese2 jew...cam plik pon ad..."
sayup2 je dgr sore Bibah bukak topik forum ptg tu...
x ley ckp kuat2....ggu owg nk studi...

"bese laa tuu...hukum alam...."
sempoi jew si Dodo jawab sambil tgn dok selak2 Buku Teks Bio yg kununnye nk didiskusikan...
err...x jupe pon topik 'bini jiranku cantek' dlm buku nih...???

"maksud ko??"
Peah wat muka blur yg terang2 mnunjukkan dye x paham...

"Allah tuu adil...klu da sume yg cantek dgn yg encem jew, ape cite org yg bese2 jew..?
sampuk Qila yg dr td diam jew belek buku Kimia....ntah bce kew x tah...

"hmm..gud point...agree2...."
kening Peah da x kerut2 da cm tadi...
yg laen pon dok mengangguk same...
kire da paham laa 2 kott...

"emm..tapi kan....cane laa akak yg cantek bangeettt tu ley suke kat jiran ak tu ek...musykil2..."
Bibah create 1 persoalan ag...x abez2 ngn cte jiran dye...


"dont judge da book by its cover laa...there r more than what meet da eyes...cewah!"
tu diaaaaa...Qila da kuaq da idioms dye...


"ok, gud point lagik...stuju2...eh, kome igt x 1 hadis tuu...alaa...ape yew...ak lupa plak...
yg psl kriteria nk plih jodoh tu...isshhh ape yew...??"
Tepejam-pejam mate si Dodo nk mengingatkan hadis tuu balek...


"ermmm...lbey kurg gni kott hadis tuu...Perempuan dinikahi krna empat faktor. 
Krna hartanya, nasabnya, kecantikannya dan agamanya. 
Maka beruntunglah sesiapa yg memilih agama...err...btol x..??"
jawab Esah yg mmg salu score highest mark subjek Syariah ngn Quran Sunnah...ley jadi ustazah dye ni...


"hah!! btol laa tu...!!!"
satu kelas pandang si Dodo yg terjerit excited.....geng study group yg len wat2 tnduk bace buku...
"err...sowi people...heheh"
Dodo kave2 ckp sowi sambil ttop muke ngn buku Bio....malu kott...kelas tgh senyap tuuu....


"padan muke ko...hohohoho"
terangkat-angkat bahu Qila gelakkan Dodo....die nih klu glakkan owg...mmg no 1...


"hadis tu kan ckp psl care nk plih calon isteri kan...kirenyee applicable gak tok plih calon hubby laa ek..??"
Dodo smbung blk topik...maleh nk layan Qila yg x abez2 ag gelak....


"yup...klu pilih yg ad agama, insya-Allah bhgia dunia akhirat....
ape tu omputeh kate.....hepily ever after...hehehe..."
Esah jwb ngn pnoh yakin tanpe perlu gune talian hayat....
yg laen angguk tande tamo bidas pape...undeniable fact kott...nk bidas hapenyew...




............silent mode..............




Bibah, Dodo, Peah, Qila ngn Esah, lima2 skali da diam....
memaseng da ngadap buku...study....
dgn sendiriyew ter'conclude'lah sesi forum x rasmi ptg tu...




"....plih yg beragama.....hmmmmm..."
Qila monolog sendrik lagi.....




"weyh kowg...tamo blk kew....jum laa...nk cop singki ag nih..."
Sam ngn Lia da tepacak bediri kat pintu blakang 5 IS....
dowg nih clas 5 Ibn Rushd (5 IR)...dak LK (lukisan kejuruteraan)...
tem nk abez prep kompem on time tanpe lewat sesaat pon semate2 xnk brebut singki tok bsoh baju....


"eh, x pasan laa da nk 4.30....jum2...."
Peah tros kemas2 pencil case.....Qila pon same....yg len ikot kemas2 beg...
dowg pon jalan laa berempat heading to surau sblom blk aspuri...
cop singki, cop singki gak, tp Asar jemaah jgn plak di'anaktiri'...
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aspura ngn aspuri da kosong....
sume student da gerak pi surau since waktu maghrib da nk msok jap ag...
Qila dok ngaji sesowg dkat ngn rak Quran sbb jap ag snang nk ltak blk tafsir yg dye gune...
Peah, Sam ngn Lia pon tgh ngaji gak tp memaseng dudok port laen2...
mencari solace tok dri sndrik.....


Qila angkat muke pandang mihrab surau....
surau ni x letak tabir...tu yg ley nmpak mihrab tuu...
ustaz kate tamo ltak tabir sbb tamo dak pmpuan bsing...
emm...lom ad yg nk azan ag...
sambung ag ngaji....



surah an-Nur, ayat 26...

eh...ayat ni.......Qila tros bce mafhum dye dlm ati....

 'perempuan-perempuan yang jahat adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang jahat, dan lelaki-lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan-perempuan yang jahat; dan (sebaliknya) perempuan-perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki-lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki-lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan-perempuan yang baik. Mereka (yang baik) itu adalah bersih dari (tuduhan buruk) yang dikatakan oleh orang-orang (yang jahat); mereka (yang baik) itu akan beroleh pengampunan (dari Allah) dan pengurniaan yang mulia.'



yg jahat tok yg jahat....
yg baek tok yg baek....
....Allah da janji....

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Ya Allah....
Kau tentukanlah yg terbaek buatku....
Sesungguhnya Kau x pernah silap dlm mentakdirkan sesuatu....

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Nilai & Pengajaran:

- pandai jage kebersihan (mnang dorm terCUN 17x)
-rajin belajar (situasi prep)
-jgn ckp2 psl owg len sgt (topik bini jiranku cantek)
-rajin2 ngaji Quran..byk pahale...
-jadilah org baek klu nak org yg baek


~TAMMAT~



i do believe everyone wants DA BEST for him/herself...
for me, its not about being DEMAND or TOO CHOOSY....
but its about considering a BIG decision in our life....
here and hereafter...
well, maybe it seems like we r demanding...
we might goin to hope dat he/she will be like what we want...
we also might goin to list down a lot of criteria on how we want he/she would be...
good...pious...kind..sweet...smart...not smoking...jage ikhtilat...good at cooking...and etc. etc...
is diz what people called DEMANDING??
if it is so...is it wrong for being demand for our own good..??
we r certainly not listing all diz criteria for nothin...rite??

hmm...it juz so hard to talk on diz topic...
da bez way is...juz leave diz matter to Him...
what's important is take a good care of our ownselves and keep on improving ourselves...
diz is da bez effort we shud fight on if we really want da good one...

"jadi baek dulu...insya-Allah, akan ad yg baek utkmu...
cinta Allah dulu..insya-Allah,akan ad yg mencintai Allah untukmu..."

(BIG REMINDER to memyself)



.....Let fate fares us well.....


Sunday, May 1, 2011

...صبر...

heyya D...!!!!
(menyapa mymissD dgn pnoh mesra tanpe kave2)
lamenyeeeeeeeeeewwwwww laa x jenguk u D.....
hoho...ke'bz'an diri yg x terhingge menghalang daku tok sharing2 stowi kat cni...
eheh....dicampo wabak malas yg kdg2 merebak dgn dasatnye dlm diri...
hehe...datz why laa lame bona u're not being updated D....
im sory...(gaye amir RL...hohuhe)

too many things happened within da days i didnt write on u, D...
klu nk di rewind and ditulis blk mmg berjela-jela laa gamaknye...
 byk bnde da jadik...
sad things also included....
tp xpe....
sadness tuu kan ujian dr Allah...
ujian tuu tande Allah syg...
Allah nk tgok kite ni sabo ke dak....


"Apakah kamu mengira bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum nyata bagi Allah orang-orang yang berjihad diantaramu dan belum nyata orang-orang yang sabar."
 (3:142)


tp btol laa...
bkn snang nk sabar when we being tested...
kdg2 kite rse kite da sabar + redho da ngn ape yg jadik, tp upenye ad yg x setel ag...
(memyself laa tuu...uhukk333...)


Sabarlah dalam bersabar...
readin diz on Solusi edisi 31 makes me think further and further....
byknyee ak sdey tem facing on 'test' by Him...
pdahal x sptotnye kite sdey while facing on any test sbb Allah da kate dlm love letter.....


"Dan org yg bersabar dlm musibah, penderitaan dan peperangan, mereka itulah org yg benar imannya dan mereka itulah org yg bertakwa.."
(2:177)




Credit to Solusi Edisi 31


let me share wif u one interesting stowi...
err...x taw laa interesting kew x but i still want to consider it as interesting, hehe..
recently, i lost my phone...
its been a year and half we spent lots of tyme together..
(eheh gaye cm ape jew)
tp i dunno why and how i can be so calm mse fon ceq nih ilang...
mse tu cme pkir "xpelaa...Allah bg pinjam takat ni jew.."
....redho....

what makes me feel touched on dat time is when i found diz ayat during ngaji mse tuu...

‎"Dan Kami pasti akn m'uji kamu dgn sdikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan sampaikanlah khabar gembira kpd org2 yg sabar. (iaitu) org2 yg apabila ditimpa musibah, mereka berkata 'innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un'. Mereka itulah yg memperoleh ampunan & rahmat dr Tuhannya & mereka itulah org2 yg m'dpt petunjuk..." 
(2:155-157)

mse tu rse cam kena sgt ayt nih ngn memyself...
sabar yew qis....Allah uji amek fon jew...

"innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un"


my beloved nokia 6220 classic

suddenly....(jeng,jeng,jeng...)
ptg esoknye, out of sudden we got call from my own number...
pokcik sore ni kol oyak fon kawe ad nge dio...
(pcubaan kecek)
kawe pon suko laa....
ALHAMDULILLAH....
sapo laa nok sangko nok jupo blk fon hok ile nih...
(ok ckop laa 2 kecek...x seswaii..ehehe)
tuu laa nmenye rezki....
mase dpt blk fon nih tros rase cam....
BESAR nye adiah bile SABAR....
syukur sgt2....

moral of da stowi is...
"bersangka baiklah pd Allah....Dia x akan menzalimi hamba-Nya"
whateva things happen kite saba laa..and redho...
coz He knows better....
^_^

interesting x stowi nih..???
ehehe....sowi if it isn't so..
but what i want to share is stiap ujian Allah tu pasti ade hikmah dye...
btol x..??
kan...kan...

i really hope i can keep on SABAR in facing all mehnah in diz life...
what is mehnah..??
mehnah is an arabic word wif da meaning of ujian...
ehehe...share sharing vocab...hehe
although mmg undeniable nk sabar ni ssh...tp pcayelaa...
SABAR itu INDAH....
u can only know when u experienced it..
thus, sabarlah...

how hard it is...
how pain it is...
face it wif a smile...
coz...
'smile costs u nothing'





keep on smiling....  ^_^


(pesanan penaja)


pens off...